I can lie to anyone, even myself and that too in the face with a straight face. Also i am a people pleaser, though recovering.
I’m ridiculously spiteful. I rarely forgive, and never forget. It’s so bad I’m actually still holding on to some grudges from as early as 8 years old
I complain about everything. The thing is, I’m never really that bothered, for some reason that’s how I express myself. In my mind it’s more constructively criticisms, but when I do it all the time about everyday mundane things, people perceive it as whining.
Insecurity that presents itself by becoming peoples’ therapist instead of being a friend or a partner. As long as I’m useful to them, they will need me and won’t leave.
That’s a fucked up thought though and I’m working on it. I have already eradicated the constant need for validation, the demand to answer my texts immediately or I’ll be sad, manipulating people to stay, and for example laying all my sorrows on a friend or partner.
Slowly but surely I’m becoming a much better person.
I prefer to pretend everything is fine and maintain relationships no matter who is hurting