You’re mourning the loss of a relationship. Grief has many stages and you don’t move through them all at once. It’s ok to feel hurt and betrayed, because you were. I don’t know one single person that wouldn’t feel the same as you. Ultimately he did you a massive favour by setting you free to find someone that truly loves you. And no, it won’t hurt forever. Did you ever seek out counselling? It might be an idea to look in to it, so you can deal with your emotions in a healthy way.
> said I wanted to believe this narrative because its a typical girl thing to blame the relationship on others, in order to move on and to heal faster.
WOOFT. That’s some intense gaslighting.
She’s marrying a cheater and a gaslighter. Trash attracts trash.
My ex cheated on me in front of me in a nightclub and years later married the same girl. His shitty behavior towards me paid off. It was extremely painful but now I couldn’t care less. Why? Because I’d hate to marry someone who thinks that behavior is acceptable.
You didn’t lose him, you were saved from him! Keep supporting yourself and reassuring yourself. Change the narrative you’re telling yourself by upgrading it with the truth.
Mourn not over that which you have lost, as that was only ever the incorrect perception of an actually awful person. You didn’t lose anything other than dead weight.